How is H abusing you this way supposed to fix anything? How are you running away? Because you don't accept being treated like less than human? Being called a cum receptacle is just not ok. I'm sorry, but that is just wrong. How much does he need to humliate you in order to feel better? FWIW, it doesn't seem to be working as he can't look you in the eyes. Your H is hurting and instead of working out his feelings, he focuses his anger and pain at you.
Is he in any sort of IC? What are you doing for you?
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option