I do think that he might be thinking a little. I was kinda shocked when he said he wanted to stay the night with me the night before. Last time he left he begged his sergent to stay with me but was not allowed to stay at the house with me and had to stay at the hotel with the rest of the guys. It was so heartbreaking. This will not be as hard because if everything goes well it will only be a month but any separation will be tough. I am glad he was honest and opened up about how he was feeling. I need to be strong for him. Last time he left we were both a mess the night before, I've never seen him cry like that before but the next day at the airport I stayed strong until he was on his plane and I was alone. I think it helped him. He still cried and was very upset but not as much as the night before. If that makes sense. So I need to keep it under control and do my crying alone so that he does not get freaked out.
It is a hard situation but God is in control and it must be happening at this time for a reason. My confidence comes and goes in waves. When I first heard I was devastated, then I calmed down, then I cried in the car, then we talked and I settled down again, etc.
Right now I am okay. I have a busy day ahead of me so I will not be thinking too much about it. He does want me to take off a day or two from work to be with him so I will have to talk about it a little at the staff meeting this afternoon. It's okay though. My employers are supportive and so are my coworkers. For that I am thankful and am sure it will be okay. It's sweet that he wants me to take time off.
The one good thing is that he will be allowed to take his cell phone so we can still text and talk probably daily if wanted/needed. When he was in boot camp we only got to talk once a week for fifteen minutes and that was brutal. AIT is much easier to deal with that way.
So we will be okay, if not better, coming out of this.
