I believe in Miracles

[istherehope]

OK,

Nothing new really. Just H IMd me to say "see you Monday at 1 PM".(By the way this is 6 days of contact in a row now for the 2nd week--AFTER he told Jody he was happy that we were talking less :)) I joked around, said "we'll see, I might be busy." with a winking emoticon, and he actually responded to this. I had been getting a bit nervous that he was taking this whole meeting thing SO seriously. So he said again, for the 2nd time in a few days "you are little". This is a thing that he used to say all the time to me in a really sweet voice.

I told him my stomach hurt and he said some gross but joking things around this, and we exchanged emoticons. He ended the conversation with "bye ass". I know that doesn't sound so affectionate, but it actually is.

I also know I analyze a lot of what H says with a microscope, but to me these niceties are a REALLY big deal. They just didn't happen until recently, and now they are happening more and more...

I am trying not to be nervous for Monday. I feel like it's a first date in a way, complete with nerves about whether there will be sex etc.

If anyone else has any ideas/tips for how to calm the butterflies or anything else, would love to hear...

ITH