This is not easy for you. I DO UNDERSTAND. Believe me, many of us here do.
Sandy, you do need to try and not let what H does or does not do influence how you feel. I know this is HARD AS HELL. Believe me I know. I feel every tear you cry as if it were running down my own cheek. I have been there and at times still am. But at other times, like today, I can be ME. I feel what I want to feel - what W does or says DOES NOT IMPACT HOW I FEEL. Heck, she is staying at a friends house tonight and it does no bother me in the least. Believe me, I still love my W with all my heart, but right now, I do not at all like the behavior I am seeing as it is destroying our family. Maybe try and take that approach to help yourself. Just a thought.
You don't get there easily though. And at times you will (as I have) slip back. But you need t do this for you and your K's. All you can control is you.
(((Sandy))) you CAN DO THIS. YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH and will be a much stronger woman for it. Try to keep the faith.
LIS
M45 WW 43 D17/S14/D11
ILYB Jan 08 PA Conf Feb 08 OMW / OM contacted S Jan / 09
No one ever has, or ever will, escape the consequences of their actions.