Digging in

[yenko69]

What an odd world it has been. Me and SD now 17 have had a rough relationship. I told the W last night to see if she wanted me to come by for her b-day tonight. W texted me last night.

W: She wants you to be there. The OM will be there. She wants you
to put aside your differences for the night.
W: If you can't, I understand.
M: wont be there, will tell her I am sorry tomorrow when I send her
a b-day greeting.W: I am sorry I truly am. I'll have you out
for dinner when I get
back if you would like.

No response from me. Went from zero to pissed rather quickly. The first text was a setup by the W. She was talking about getting back from SD with OM where he works as a hunting guide.

Today I went out and worked on the house some more. I sent the W a coming to jesus letter saying that she crossed a major line with me and her sorry was not cutting it. A couple other things, basically that when she left next week it was a dealbreaker I was done and moving on with my life. Did not want her friendship, just to be civil and respectful. I fully intended to file on her this week. I was just waiting out the weekend to make sure. It would not have changed, I was done.

Was going to bed and got this, sorry the order may be messed up a bit.

W:I'm so confused right now. I did not know I had talked trash
on you. It hurts me so bad how much I've hurt u. Im not happy
yet I can't figure it out which direction
m: do the right thing for yourself and keep doing it no matter
what you feel. then you will find the happiness the right
actions lead to the right emotions.
W: You love me more then anyone ever has. I am so ashamed of how
I've treated you. I keep reading your letters. You are
becoming a different person. I'm so upside down right now.
M: Yeah I am different and a better person u kno what you need
to do inside yourself just do it it is something you can only
answer.
W: I can't let you go! how can you love someone you are so angry
and disappointed with?
M: how can you love someone that has hurt you. you take the
chance and make the choice.
W: I know I am crazy but also very confused. These letters say
all the things I always wanted from u. well except the one
from today.
W: You hate me don't you?.
W: I trust in you! you are my strength, my comfort, my trust,
my rock.... what do you think?
M: no, i don't hate u
W: But i have this fear of letting each other down again. Not to
mention the whole ordeal with SD17. At court it took all I
had not to grab your hand. I did not even want to go upstairs
till you got there.

M: if you wanted to reach out at me at court (stress) what does
that tell u
W: I think we need to sit down and talk. Put everything out on
table. what about SD17?
M: I agree, the deal with SD17 will work out
W: Are you sure. I have to figure out away to get out of leaving
Sunday.
M: Yeah I am sure we can talk about it tomorrow after drill
W: I am so sorry for everything i have put you through. I cant
make any promises but I'm willing to take it a step at a time.
That is all I can give you right now.
M: not asking for a promise just the effort
M: I can take the leap of faith if you are willing
W: Ok, have neice and nephew.
M: its ok we can still find a way to talk one on one
W: yeah we can
W: Sorry I kept you up so late.
M: just so you know where I stand I was going to file on you and
fastrack a D
W: what does that mean
M: If you left I would have filed and went for an emergency D is
what I meant.
W: Wow! weird how things kinda work themselves out. I h know I
haven't been fair to you I am truly sorry.
M:It is a weird world talk to you tomorrow goodnight
W: Good night and sweet dreams!

Dang, feel like H4H and his long posts. Skeptical very. I will lay down my conditions tomorrow, she either goes with it or I will be single by the end of the year. Either way works.