Sometimes I like to think of them as having a mental illness as they are lost right now. Kind of like a bad dream and when they wake up, they will be amazed at how they have messed up their lives and those they love.

My H cannot forgive himself at all, says some things cannot be fixed as so much damage has been done. At first I thought, our marriage???? Then I thought nope, he is still coming around, we can hang out for hours, he says he loves me, his heart is with me, etc.

Also, my H has not spoken to his parents in over three years. I think that is what he feels he cannot go back and fix. For him to talk to his dad will take a miracle.

I think God still has a lot of work to do on these men.

The Bomb: 08/05
H moves out: 06/2006
H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07
H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08
H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09
Divorced 08-12
Kids: 22, 20, 19