I do take care of me..and the kids..they are getting all their needs met.
The problem is .. the deep pain in my heart. I cant stop crying...why do I love someone so much that has broken my heart ..and at times I dont even think he realizes the pain he is causing.
I dont feel like its a decision..I want to be happy.. I want to go out and find a knight and shining armour that will treat me better than I ever have known... but I dont even know how.. I wake up.. and can only focus on how much I love and miss him.
If I truely felt he would come home..of course I would say I would wait..but it doesnt look like he is going to choose me... he is going to pick someone young and dumb and irresponsible.
