Treese, I have to say, I see a little of myself in you. And this is going to sound ungentle, so please excuse me.
I see a little of myself in your posts - myself at those times when I feel lost, or victimized, or defeated, or pathetic. I hate that feeling. I weep too. I'm sad too. But I resolve not to let it rule my life. I have other stuff to do.
I am not pathetic. I am not defeated. I will be happy again. I will live a fulfilling life. And MAYBE, just maybe it will be with my spouse. But I cannot worry about life. Only today. one day at a time. and if I am doing it right, I will be happy TODAY. I will share laughs and smiles with someone today.
Here's the thing - there's no way my wife wants me back if I am pathetic! My crying for her is not going to send her running to me. !!! I have a much better chance of her coming back, if there is something cheerful to come back to! And the same is true for you.
I'm so sorry you miss him. I'm sorry it's hard.
You've got to be strong and courageous now. Be brave. no more crying on your kids - it's not healthy for them. And you will win in the end.
The title of this thread is EXACTLY right on. Be strong. Cry, for a time. But then Get back up and get busy living.
