2. When he finishes he will be officially in his unit which is getting deployed to Iraq next year, in April. I think that might kill me.
3. He will be living on an army base with a bunch of DAM who will undoubtedly be bad influences
I am feeling a little more calm now. I cried all the way home and then called my hubby and he said it's going to be ok and that he is a little scared too but he is going to be fine. He also made me smile by saying that he wants to stay the night with me the night before and that he wants me to be the one to pick him up from the airport when he comes home again. So that is positive and good but there are so many potential pitfalls. I think I will die if we get things back together and then he leaves to go to war. I can't even think about it right now without having a nervous breakdown.
I'm trying to breath and trying to think of ways to spend as much time as possible with him between now and his departure. He wants to spend more time together too so we will be making plans later to hang out more than what we had already set up. So that is also good. I'm just going to miss him so much. Even if it is only 29 days that is still a long time when we are just starting to put pieces together again. But then again it could be just the thing to bring us together again. It will give him time to think and miss me and when he gets home he will get his enlistment bonus and we could actually afford to move in together again because of that. So there are lights at the end of the tunnel but I still feel scared and sad right now.
Thanks for being there you guys. I really appreciate you!
