My focus became clear after the affair. I am someone who always looks to find positives and with the A I know that it saved me of another 20 years of a bad marriage. But in my awakening I killed it for H.
I know i have to take rsponsibility of my actions etc BUT why cant he see that now we could have the best marriage ever?
Yesterday was not a good day for me and I reverted back to needy. Not attractive. I seem to think I am making progress and I get comfortable and something happens and I get cross and he withdraws. WHY cant I be accepting of his decision and treat him with the respect I would a friend or family member. I would never of snapped at them .
