Well i think my mini bomb struck a nerve. She showed up at my house and hung around til 7:30, kept asking my daughter when I'd be home. She needed to pick out an outfit for her wedding tomorrow she is attending with OM. My Ds picked out something nice, and she went with what my daughter's described as "skanky". She is flat broke and wanted my daughters to ask me for money for her for gas. Yeah, right. give my still legally married wife money to be with another guy. Anyway, they refused. My kids are becoming frsutrated with her and even the youngest, which she has the most contact with, says her conversations are awkward, its like she has to talk to me, doesn't want but does. She calle dmy house at 11 last night to ask her brother for $10 for gas. My D told her he was sleeping. My W blew up saying I have been calling your brother and leaving messages for him to call me. I told him he owes me so much money from before and i need money now. She wonders why he won't call back. he tells me he cries when she leaves messages because they are never about how he is, how he is doing or how is son is. She never returns his messages. So he has given up calling her.
Her desperation to get gas money to get down to this wedding and be with OM is heart wrenching. she was always that way with me. She didn't text me for money to be transferred into her account which she had done in th epast. My mini bomb yesterday must have flattend her. When she saw the increase for health ins, she must've flipped. If she want to stay with me, I have left the impression that it will cost her $55 a week to stay on. As I stated earlier, i most likely won't take her off, just not that typ eof person. But, as Amy pointed out, I dnm't want her back strictly becasue fo economic reasons. Howver, I believe her loneliness is beginning, Reality is she has her frined she is living with, another girlfriend who is going through some seriousw family issues with her own D illness and the OM. He works 2nd shift so she may be feling less than accepted by her own kids right now. Also, her mother called her blasted her big time last night. My W told her to stop calling and telling her what to do and to leave her alone. Alone is what I think she is starting to feel.
Monday is my anniversary (29 years). Not sure, if any, what the emotional impact will be on her. I am stayong dark right now. No contact whatsoever. I really expected a text rfegarding money, but my guess is her irned lent it to her, or she wrote a bogus check that will bounce. she thinks I'm putting money in the account for gym fees (EFT) but I called and they are taking it directly out of my new accont. I think she spends more time with him due to her loneliness, at least thats what I hope because I know she isn't asking for or accepting money from him.
Just blogging today becasue I feel, angry, hurt and in pain. I want her to see my light aand start down that road. I think he's keeping her concvinced to stay with him because he has no friends. This was told to me by people he knows. He litterally has no one.
