Another one bites the dust (2)

[No Longer BH]

So, STBXH is starting to get it that when I said I want NC, I really mean NC. He still trys to have conversations with me, ask how I am feeling when he shows up, ask if I had a good time when I get back. I am always polite but just dont want to talk to him anymore. He no longer lingers around but packs up his stuff and leaves. I have no respect for who he has turned into and feel that I would be wasting my energy if I kept trying to be his friend to get him back. He has OW to be his friend now.

I was so scared to go dark because I thought that meant it was really over. Here is the thing, it was over anyway. Going dark is letting me finaly heal from the emotional wounds that I recieved throughout this ordeal. It is the final step I needed to just be able to move on and let go. Thoughts of him no longer fill most of my day, but they are still there more than I would like. I am not affraid of the big bad divorce any more, just look at it the financial piece that I need to have to move on.

I have really been GAL here lately. Monday night a friend came over for awhile, Tuesday went out with another friend, Wed went to dinner with my S and had a great night, last night went and saw Ghost Town with a different friend and finally tonight going to a 40th Bday party with yet a different friend. Makes me tired even typing it. It is amazing to me how often the infidelity issue is used in films and I dont think I noticed it before because I thought it would never happento me. Last week I saw Burn after reading and had a hard time getting through it and then last night Ghost Town had a minor plot line about infidelity. It was still pretty funny and I found myself laughing really hard in parts. Very cute movie. Just goes to show me how mainstream having an affair is anymore. Sad. Anyway....I'm off to be the social butterfly that I am!