Help! At what point is DBing not the right thing to do? I've admitted to my H my affair, we've been working on reconciling for the past nine months. He just can't believe me--I understand why, but what do I do when I get an e-mail like this? It refers to my painting my nails the night before I was with OM. My H thinks I did it FOR OM. I didn't and I told him that. I was just bored and I painted them. Yes, OM was the first man to see them painted. But below is what my H thinks I should say -- but it's not true! And the last line? How am I supposed to cuddle, kiss, initiate when he feels this way. Yes, I felt like a whore with OM -- what H is asking me to do is be a whore with him too. And I don't want to feel like a whore again.
My H wrote that I should have replied to his question about why I painted my nails this way: "I painted them to look pretty for OM. When we were f***ing and my feet were on his shoulders I noticed they didn't look good, so I wanted them to look pretty for him. He liked to play with them and suck on them so I wanted them to look good for him."
I could at least respect that, because it is the truth. I am not going to play with them or lick them or suck on them anymore, and I don't care if you ever paint them again. I just want to get off and be done. Take care of me like you took care of him. I don't want to work for it or anything. I want to know what it is like to have someone let me just use them for my personal cum receptacle."
