Because I feel the same way. I can walk back and forth to work thinking about random things that make me smile or humming, but the stress of trying to deal with the situation STBXH has put me in does get to me, and I feel like I am also going to have to be the one to get the D going since he is being dumb about it all. I am not where I wanted to be, not where I ever planned to be, but I am making the best of it.
If my STBXH came to me right now and said he wanted to get back together, I don't know what I would do. I'm sure it would emotionally throw me for a loop. I would be very torn between my promises and the love I still have for the person I M, and my digust and distrust of the person he has become along with the need to protect myself from being hurt by him yet again.
At least, that's what I see in your posts, but maybe I'm just seeing a mirror of myself and not your true state of mind lol.
Regardless, TGIF
((((((Kalni))))))
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
