I dont know what to post anymore. And to be honest I dont know how to express myself lately. It seems that everybody thinks I would lie about not being Ok with the outcome. Well I am not OK with the outcome, I dont like the fact that my M ended but I am OK. And I am smiling inside (and if Idaho was part of Greece I would be thrilled).
I am not OK feeling hostage of my xH, of financially struggling a bit (cant complain but it is frustrating), of dealing with my kids hurt and accusations, of watching xH lingering and acting as if we are still a couple but only about the parts he is interested in, of having to set boundaries as if I was the one wishing the divorce, of trying to balance between being polite and right and being a b!tch so that he finally GETS it... Why do I have to TRAIN him how to divorce me?
I only see one way coming clean with this. Filling myself and hoping he will follow and not object as he has repeatedly has said he would in the past.
And I will hear him out hoping he will not ask to try to mend things. That is what I am scared of. I dont know how many of you can get that feeling... I will post some later K
