K: Raising a girl is nothing like raising a boy. Some might disagree (like my friend with the 18 year old son who is constantly in trouble). My Brandon was a breeze to raise. Ashley has been DIFFICULT. Neither is bad. Both are wonderful. But Ash is more like me. Jumps from one crazy thing to another - LOL. Bran is the most laid back guy. Sensitive and caring. God gave me such a gift when I had him. In fact - I think "Matthew", his middle name means "gift from God". When he was born I wanted a girl. Chuck was acting up (big surprise) and flirting with a girl at work (who knows if there was something up but no doubt it was likely) and I remember telling him I wasn't coming home from the hospital. And telling him I wanted to try once more for the girl. The stress that followed was horrible. YUCK - that was 26 years ago. In the months that followed he was depressed, nasty (once told me I looked like a cow when I was breast feeding). He made 3 serious suicide attempts and ended up in the psych ward. He threatened my life on several occasions.
Hmmm... suppressed memories. Not sure why that just came out but I don't think it hurts to write it down once in a while. Makes me more sure of the man I am with now.
