I need to try to find a way to calm down as I'm seeing him on Monday, and in order to have this be a positive thing, I need to believe that he wants me to be there, and that we will have a positive day. If I keep focusing on the negatives, I understand that's what I'll get. I have to believe that he wouldn't have asked me to stay for 2 nights if he didn't want to see what it was like to be around me.
This is true. I will read the rest later and give you feedback - I'm out at meetings this afternoon - yay for distraction!
