God give me the patience and the strength...7

[theotherhalf]

thanks DOH I printed out your post and I will try it.

I know what my real "fear" is. It's the fear of losing my H forever. But I think I am reaching the point of realizing that it may just happen and there really is not a damb thing I can do about it.

I "want" to stay M. I "want" to share my life with H. I "want" to stay on this farm. But life doesnt always turn out the way we "want" it to. My life today really really s*cks. I can't continue living this way for ANY reason. It's time to make it stop. Accept what is. And find a way to make it better. For ME. and for MY GIRLS. H is not my problem anymore.

Sooo, here goes...