Going to Court today. Scared but as prepared as I can be. My lawyer will be with me. Its the first of many battles to come. I need to remain in house for childrens sake....I fear for their safety as well as their sanity.
Its tough staying in the house with her, as she is baiting me all the time. I have remained calm and avoid her at all costs. She is definitely in fight mode and I must be up to the challenge. I have no choice and she forced me to take every and all possible measures to protect the children and myself.
She wants out, kids, house and money. This will be the fight to the bitter end and there will be no winners...only losers. Her choice...as i must do what I must. She has ben lying and taking advantage of me for years. Time to stand my ground.
Wish me luck as ...the games begin.........
PS-- I have definitely detached... Stage 1 done. On to stage 2.....I dont know if we could ever be friends, as I do not trust her nor believe any words she says. I will keep it professional..at best for the children's sake. But she is using them as weapons in this fight. I find that to be utterly reprehensible. Then again, nothing suprises me anymore.
I doubt stage three is possible...even though my D10 said that somewhere inside my W loves me. She is just confused and doesn't know what to do. Leave her alone for now was her advice. Smart kid!! As long as OM there or in her mind, then there is no possible resurrection. In any event, the door has closed in my mind and unless something dramatic occurs, what that would be I could not even fathom, then its better off we end this now.
