[Committed2Him]

Heard I missed some stuff... too bad about the banishments. Though I haven't had the time to keep up on all the details, this place has been a godsend for me and some of those that were asked not to post here any longer have been very helpful to me.

Mini update for any still here who are interested:

Kids are fine, I see them less often than I use to because of their busy high school schedules. Still, I see them every Sunday to take them to church, get to see as many of their sporting events as possbible and am still Taxi dad to daughter whenever she needs it. (took my daughter to our last father/daughter dance at her h.s. and am taking her on a one day turnaround to visit a college up north later this month. Surprised my son today with tickets to the upcoming USC vs. Oregon game Saturday - he is excited as am I)

X and I have had long periods of calm, we focus on the kids. Mr. X and I remain cordial when we see each other even though it is only natural to feel resentment try to rise up (lots of prayer to keep bitterness in check and increased prayer for X and her husband).

Work is fine, keeping me busy. I enjoy what I do, work with some great people and get to help people on a daily basis.

Home loss - I am still going to lose my house but I have accepted it. This is another reason to be bitter towards X (if she were honest about her committment to marry Mr. X, I never would have refinanced and kept the house) but if I allowed that to happen, I would have to change the theme of my threads, wouldn't I?

Travel - I am still going on a missions trip to Spain in about 7 weeks, looking forward to that very much.

Romance - just focusing on loving my kids, loving God and serving Him in any way I can. The rest will fall into place and if it doesn't, so be it.

Recreation - Biking time has gone way down but I am still playing bball once or twice a week and getting injured once or twice a week LOL! (yep, I am definitely no longer in my 20's or 30's ). I have a great group of friends from church (and am involved in mentoring younger men) and there are some wonderful ladies in that group but again, none falling into the catagory above.

In the 26 months since X moved out, I have experienced the depths of disappointment of betrayal and have moved through the stages of healing to get to a place of peace. I have made great personal financial sacrifice to work from home for first 22 months of this journey in order to be available to my kids for after and in school activities as well as total availability during the summers - worth every tens of thousands of dollars I did not earn by not having a traditional 8-5 job.

I have also participated in several short term missions trips and have served extensively in my church and at outreaches to minister to my community.

I am so blessed, my life is good, very good and I have the peace that surpasses understanding.