1.) 'A' called tonight. Although, I was down today with the flu, I answered the call. I was eager to talk. 2.) We talked about the whole spectrum. 3.) As I should feel good about his call, after 12 minutes of conversation, we said our good-nights, and I had my 'A' withdrawals. 4.) In my mind, I went over our conversation. Was I ok? Even though I am sick, did I sound good, positive? Was I too much? Why didn't he ask to see me? 5.) No plans were made to see each other. Although goals were met, how do we see each other again. 6.) I should be happy, but I still want something to hold onto..
Positives:
1.) He initiated the call. We talked about fun things and good things. 2.) I encouraged him and gave him feedback. 3.) I'm happy that he didn't have to ask me anything, just a telephone visit.
Goal:
1.) Allowing 'A' to initiate more. 2.) Paying more attention to taking care of myself. 3.) Being a part of 'A's social plans -- movies, shows, & concerts. (all that he is doing apart from me) It is something he did before me and again after me. Why not with me? How do I show him and/or discuss with him that I'd like to share fun times with him and it doesn't mean that he has to lose his life because of it?
