W is wearing her wedding ring today again. This is the first time in eight months that I have seen her wear it on 2 consecutive days. She has also been emailing me today at work in a chatty way and wants us to see a movie afterwards.
I would like to see this continue but am still keeping my expectations in check. There is simply too much pain, guilt and other horrible emotions to have any.
In keeping with her LL being gifts, I have been making her a box with her favourite colours on it and have put her name on it in gold. She knows I am making this box for her but has no idea how it will look when it's finished - she certainly doesn't know how I am personalising it.
W and I saw "the Duchess" last night at the cinema. The core theme is infidelity and affairs. Oddly, it was a real eye opener in how not to treat your wife and you can just see how As happen - what could ptoentially lead a woman to stray. I was very concerned going into the movie how I would react - two months ago we saw another film about infidelity and W sided with the persons straying - that absolutely crushed me but for whatever reason this time we were able to have a normal conversation about the film.
It's a real mixed cocktail of emotion that I am experiencing at the moment - a mixture of hope, fear, despair, rage, disbelief and guilt. I cannot believe what has happened this year as I contemplate the enormity of it all.
Last edited by GH31; 10/03/0802:38 AM.
Me: 46 W: 46 T: 23 M: 20 DS12 DD11 DS5
W left: 01/28/08 Discovered OM: 02/26/08 W back for 9 days: 04/08 W returned 05/21/08 EA/PA - 01/08-07/09 W's MLC 2008-2014 (realised this much later)
