I guess it's over

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I think you have to cross that bridge when you come to it. For the next day or so take the best care of you that you can, reach out to friends and family. Do something you enjoy and try not to dwell. The pain will lesson, you know that, cry and yell and scream right now if you have to and then pick yourself up, dust yourself off and set out to be the best you that you can, then you win no matter what may or may not happen in the future. Pin your hopes on you, not some other outside influence.