Yup....Bill and Forrest are probably out there scratching there heads saying WTF??? They have been telling me for months to look at what she is doing rather than waiting for her words, and I was just so focused on what I wanted to hear, that I missed all the little things.
Still, no need to get cocky. Like I said, I have a long way to go with myself, and if she lets me, much more that I would like to do in our relationship to show her that my changes are real, long lasting and sincere.
I know it's still a roller coaster ride and I want to make sure that no matter which way things go in the end, that I will be OK, and even though I talk the talk, I know I am not there yet. GAL, detaching...not my strong suit....when she is good, I feel good...when she is down and distant...me, not so good.
This last month, though, has been very different than what I have seen from her in the past....just trying very hard to not get too wrapped up in it again, and stay on track.
