Moving her from Newbees

[Clayton]

I'm having a real bad morning today. Woke up having panic attacks. I feel like I'm going backwards with my acceptance of my situation. I'm not getting detached from this at all.

I emigrated to the US from NZ to marry my W. Left my family and friends behind and had to start from scratch here in the US. Now I have no one here. Naturally her family are giving her support although they love me very much, and almost all our friends are associated with her and have moved into her corner.

I basically am here on my own now and have to deal with this situation totally solo.
I feel that I totally gave up my original life to come and be with her ...and now she basically abandoned me...after 11 yrs. She even hinted that maybe I should move back to my home country.

I would never do this to someone I disliked....nevermind someone I was supposed to love and cherish.

Just venting through my tear stained eyes.