I'm in such deep despair today. I've been trying the 180 and not talking to my spouse, yet somehow someway he finds every opportunity to be hateful towards me. After I asked him to leave me alone, he replied by telling me he will leave me alone and not to email or text him and believes his life would be better if I was completely out of his life forever. I hate all this. I'm doing so terrible that I actually believe everyone will be better off without me in their lives. I just can't take any of this anymore. He continues to be hateful no matter what I do or say. All of this is my fault. I saw someone else and I'm being severely punished for it. My job sucks and in danger of being fired. I'm not being the mother I should be. I'm not being the friend I should be. I feel crappy and I can't get out. I'm treading water and being pushed down as often as possible in every direction.
