Best friends?

[GFI]

Well, it happened, the house came through and I'm pretty much in there now. We have told s6 that mummy and daddy find it very difficult to live together and that we both love him to the stars and back.

Actually, he seems pretty OK with this. W and I make a good parenting team - one of our strengths and fortunately i think we are both able to see past our current sitch to put him first.

W and I talk often.

She has a bf. I'm not sure about how this is panning out and I'm not asking. What I do know is that the times when I have my S6 are the times when she sees a lot of him. That hurts. It looks like shes living in a parallel universe - where life/experiences with me cannot happen because there's never time / opportunities...yet I create those opportunities for her.

As with OM this bf lives close by, works close by. I spend 2+ hours commuting every day. And given this sitch some of me is inclined to dump the current job - but no, can't do that - it brings in too much money and has enabled W to be p/t for 6 years now.

Bitter, I should say so! But not blaming... I think back to the DAM me and know that I had a huge huge part to play in where we are.

I am trying to be my w's friend...doing a pretty good job of that i think - despite the swirling emotions. I love my W. Simple as that. I hope she sees me as a good place to fall. I am...I am not the man I was - that man was an a$$. More than anything I am trying to give real space. Which is hard when knowing about her bf.

Keeping going with this path rather than reacting hurt and doing something spiteful is sometimes challenging but I want to be true to my real character and I am not a spiteful or bitter person. No I'm a really tolerant, kind person, but not an a$$ kisser - its finding that line that is tricky.

Letting go...with love and hope for a positive outcome.

KBO - GFI