Well, another day has come. Im still here and I am getting stronger. I read on Charlene cares newletter today that it is alright to cry. To go to the Lord and just cry and let him comfort you. Dont hold it in, just let it out. It made me feel better to have read that today. I really needed that couple of down days to just get it all out.

SO, today I am back to focusing on the diet. Gotta get the 15 pounds off Ive gained back!! Might as well start now before i have 50 to lose! Gotta get back into my jeans this fall.

I have heard more from my H today. The kids called him this morning and he spoke with them briefly, i let the kids know that I didnt need to speak to him right now...so I just texted him good morning about an hour later. I got one back and I just tried to stay upbeat and I told him I hoped he has a great day! He just said U2, then about 5 min later he said "I hope you have a good day too". Then he texted again and said "did I ask how you are today" I said Im good thanks for asking. He said, sorry I should have asked sooner. I said it was ok, then he texted "ok good". Then I asked if he was ok and he said he wasnt great, but ok. So, he is down again today. I think he needs to go back on his meds. His moods are so down to me lately. He isnt his happy perky self. He thinks its just because he has changed, Im beginning to think he is depressed and isnt recognizing it as that. HE called me last night too just to ask if I was going to watch the kids for him saturday so he could go to class. I said yes, but I hated that he wasnt spending his time with them on his weekends. He didnt really argue, but said that I had just told him to ask me first when he needed someone to watch them. He was very mellow acting. Said he had to go and would maybe call me back later. He didnt though.

He is going to finish packing up his house tonight. He will start staying in his camper tomorrow night. I dont know why he waited till the last minute to do this. He even was off half a day yesterday. So he probably wont come to tkd tonight. He only comes about twice a month now.

Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10