I will not deny it....I do not think I am doing this consciously or have any expectations. In the past the DBing really took on a life of it's own. It was always on my mind. Maybe what i am experiencing now is the real DB, without any urgency or quite honestly a real idea of what it is that i want as an outcome. It is obvious W is not out of my system...I am still in hers as well....I can tell (maybe to a lesser extent who knows). On the one hand, I am convinced that she is not the person I should be living the rest of my life with and on the other hand, I find her attractive....even when she gets mad for no reason. Maybe I am letting go...maybe this is where the real DBing begins...I know one thing for sure...after the anger of the "confirmation", I am much more relaxed and happy around her....but strangely i don't really feel like i am acting as if....does any of this make sense?
BBJ, I kind of initiated the peck on the lips....yes we are heading towards a D but like i stated earlier I am at a strange place. It does not really bother me that we are headed towards a D. To me it is just legal. No paper can erase emotions.... By the way, I am happy to put a smile on your face once in a while.
