Do you feel like you gave it your best shot? Or would you be prepared to have another go at reconciling? I guess at some point you have to look back and have no regrets - just treasure the good times and your children, and know that what's done is done. 'Its called a break up because its broken'.
I guess this is a good time to practise living in the moment. My dad always tells me - dont have regrets about the past - its done, and dont worry about the future - its out of your control, just concentrate on the present - thats where life is happening.
Really interesting about your insight about playing the role you were given. I'm hearing that you realise that you are stronger than you thought you would be (given the role of being the LBS) and that maybe you feel a bit guilty, and realising there is a connection with H that's not as easy to cut off as you hoped it would be.
(((K))) Look forward to hearing more about how you are feeling and what insight you are having.
