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[optimistwife]

Up too early this morning. Woke up 2 hours before my alarm. I hate that! It always happens when I am on a bit of a downward turn internally.

I am getting itchy for a confrontation! I can feel it. I am having urges to press the R issues, tell him where I'm at, find out where he's at. I am sure partly because I am turning 35 monday, feel like this year and life are going by faster, what a waste of the summer, etc...

The ILY I got was after a fight- he was mad because the house didn't seem like he belonged there. Actually started because the pillow wasn't firm enough, offered to get him another one (my role as fixer), and he spewed that it would be hard to come home cause nothing works for him in this house- it is like it isn't his (uh- he took all his stuff out!). My crying, him mad, softened a bit, I admitted house doesn't feel right any more- isn't a home for me either- just a place. He hugged me and let me fall alseep with my head on his shoulder. Next morning was when he gave me hug and told me... I guess not quite the ILY forever and ever and I'm coming back, but the first time in over a month he used those words at all.

I do think that for us to make progress I might have to push envelope. But I am afraid as well. I will have to do some thinking about how to approach him. Need to get out of bad mental attitude first. PMSing as well.

I kind of wish my H would be a little bit more like yours, a bit more open. At least then I could get a clue about his life...