Exactly. And its not financial or security, its just I hate not having a mate/partner . Someone to talk too, someone to take away concerns, someone elses trusted opinion, someone who has your back.
Is that enough to want to be married ?
No one will love my children as much as their father. What problems do I bring to my family by introducing another partner. Why would I want to do that ?
I wish I could just snap my fingers and be somewhere else in my life other than here. I am tired of this situation. I am definitley in a better place today than I was a month ago but it still is an ugly place.
Oh to have your patience SPM. I will not wait forever. I feel myself getting angrier and angrier inside. I do not act on it , but it is there.
Yet I got myself in this position, I should have no expectations of him - but I do. I want him to bre sorry , I want him to be lonely. Is that not hateful !!!!
How long have you been living alone ? does it get easier? - I suppose eveything gets easier!
