Its been a few days since I have been on. Not much to report...life goes on....
Sunday the 28th was sons 3rd birthday..hubby came over for a while to visit and celebrate with us. It went ok..we didnt talk about anything. When he left ..he did come over to me and say well Im leaving now and reached his arms out for a hug..i looked up and gave him a kiss on the lips and he squeezed me and left.
Probably not much to anyone else..but it still feels good to be in his arms.
He left today to go home to see him family for six days. He says he is using this time to think about us and make a decision.
He hasnt been able to tell me he is done ..he just says please let me go see my family.
So..who knows...
I am not going to contact him..and pray he comes home to me...
When he comes home...if he stays with OW..i think the only way for me to move on is 100% no contact. I love him so much it hurts..... I need to almost pretend he is dead to get thru this..sounds sick..but thats the best I can explain it.
