No worries Donna, Whatis has always tried to take care of himself through this mess, it was the only way to stay sane! I'm thinking of getting some counselling to try and maybe clean out some of the poison that's still lodged in that wound. It's true, wounds need to be tended to and that's been difficult over the past year. I've been so busy trying to keep my head above water and be there for those who need me, I haven't had time to really look at my pain. It's there and little things often come from nowhere and smack me in the head. Maybe I'm strong enough now to actually take a hard look at my pain, to let myself feel it for a bit and heal from it. We'll see. Tomorrow I'm meeting with the Pastor from the new church I'm attending. It remains very difficult to meet with someone and share what happened to me, especially having to tell another male that I failed to save my M! It's all part of the process, I guess, letting others in and trusting they will be loving. It's a start! Thanks for dropping by
