I understand your frustrations. And as I've said, I'm a few years down the road from where you are right now. That's why I've posted some of the snippets of my life on your board, to help you understand that it does get better, life does go on. And I also understand your expression of "I failed". It will take a while yet, but you will understand, no, you did not fail. Your spouse had a different agenda, and that's all there is to it. Not that trickie, not that complex, you didn't do it , you did not fail. Just going to take sometime for you to understand it. Likely year two will be one of healing. Hope so. Hang in there but don't wait around for life to begin again - go do it.
