Hi trusting, I read your thread alot and dont post, but your story is really interesting to read ...like what will your h do next and then I compare him to mind...when u were in the divorce process, did yoour h agree to child and spusal support? did he fight you on it? did you go to trial? just curious......as far as your last post i knlow how u feel, just trust God with your future.....it is lonely thats true....you are doing the right thing by praying more....hey we could go out and get another person like our spouse did...we can see by their choice that it really just complicates things .......what a mess anyway u impress me....your doing great