Jeninven,
I have never posted to your thread nor do I know anything about your sitch. What I do know about is death and how hard it is and the gaping hole it can often leave. I hold you and your daughter in my thoughts and try to look beneath the rug or out the window for anything that beautiful or better yet special...I leave a Cyber blanket of warmth to wrap you and the little one in for the time being....peace