I keep saying that I am focusing on me and school and my kids, but today H had a sad thing happen to a friend and I thought maybe he would I don't know I guess be nicer toward me, feel closer to me. Well I just talked to him and he was so cold on the phone. I hate that, why am I hanging on his mood again, I am not supposed to do that. I think I am looking for the "change" and it isn't happening, course we have been apart for only a couple weeks. I think there was a thread about expecting changes too soon, well I think that is me. I need to cool it.
disappointed in myself
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
