Journalling

My W and I have a large disconnect in our lives. She doesn't want to go out of her way to do anything with me. Baby steps is the mantra of this board. How many baby step equals a step. That's something I would like to know.

I go out by myself and I try to keep it a mystery. Sometimes I feel like the biggest looser while I'm displaying my independence. Last night I went to a local bar. I sat and had a few drink and bought this younger lady a few. Why, because she was nice to me and nothing more. We talked and I listened - practicing my validation skills.

I don't how men can not talk to their Ws. My W is a cold fish, she has her problems and the only time I here about them is when she's drunk. Why do I have such a sad and pathetic life? Maybe I could have chosen better words, but right now I'm lost for anything better.