I'm going to procede with Mediation, W an I are alternating weekends with the kids and she still has tuesday and thursday evenings. Unfortunatly she still is watching them at the house so I'm not sure how to handle this weekend when I'm not out or away.
Last night was ok. She wants to be chatty that's no big deal but when she said bye to me and I said bye back and walked away she asked if we are'nt hugging each other goodbye anymore. I shrugged and said I don't know. We left it at that. Until she called me out to the car to tell me something about her interaction with my mom. We did hug goodbye then. Hmmm...
Part of me feels detatched enough to act as if through mediation, but sometimes I don't want to keep silent. I really wanted to ask her, "When are we going to tell your parents the truth?" But I don't think this would do anything for me, her or our sitch except it would make her worried and angry at me. I don't think I'm going to go there yet. After D perhaps.
I still love my wife but I can finaly say honestly that I do not want to be with the woman as she is now, the lying, decietfull, cheating...[person].
So far I've been struggling to not say anything to her. I do not contact her or answer her calls right away. I've texted only about necessary items. This is all stuff I've done for 7 months. I've thought about trying a few friendly texts to see but then think to my self..."Why?" she is not going to stop seeing OM.
In person it is much more difficult for me. I don't do dark well but I'm great at friendly.
So i'm still stuck in the "What now?" phase.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
