Hope your call goes well! I love turning my music up loud and singing along to it. Luckily both my neighbours either side are very old and deaf so they can't hear me.
YAY!!!! DANCE PARTY TIME!!!! We can throw our falsies in the air when we get excited!! Julia, OD, Essie, Ali, everyone is invited!
I just called him last night and left a message that was very warm, basically "Hey B, it's transformer. I am feeling a lot better so I thought I would call you. I hope you are feeling totally 100% better yourself! I would love to hear your thoughts on my new cello search and hear about your brother's success. I think you are in Iowa right now with your group so call me whenever it's good for you. I hope you are having a lot of good music and doing really well!" Or something like that. I haven't heard from him yet but that is OK, I think he is probably super busy. I hope he could feel the warmth in my voice. It wasn't exactly flirtatious but I think I was smiling the whole time I was talking.
Last night I had a weird dream about him. We were sitting in the same seat watching some kind of concert/performance, reading from the same program, which he was holding over my loins. I made some sort of flirty comment about that area and he said something like, "You know I really like you, I just had to figure some things out on my own." or something like that. It was a nice dream!!!
Otherwise... I had a *really* good cello lesson today. And I met with my music theory professor and installed this practice software, something I've been procrastinating about for over a month, and then tonight I actually started USING the software, and it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be!!! I also asked him to serve on my "exam committee" and he said yes. Alleluia. He is so clear, helpful, nice--a rare jewel in academia!!
In other news, I found out this morning that my ex-cello teacher (who brutally sort of "dumped" me in a very cruel way after being very cruel and discouraging to me right before my auditions to study with the teacher I am studying with now) is coming to atlanta tonight?! I am NERVOUS about running into her. Ex-cello teacher is my CURRENT cello teacher's sort of protege/surrogate daughter. But I am trying to remember why I really loved ex-cello teacher BEFORE she became cruel and discouraging. It might be a good chance to practice reconciliation, but, of course ex-CT's heart needs to be open. I think she decided to seek solace this week with her surrogate mama & poppa because of some sort of man problem...??
(((Ali))) yes, it seems lonnnggggg ago! I am happy to have helped you. You have helped me so much too, you know! you know I was just re-reading the astrology charts you did for me today. I wonder if some of what I"ve been going through lately is dealing with some of those moon and pluto issues!!
(((Julia))) you are living in my fantasy! I dream of living somewhere where I can make as much noise as I want without disturbing anyone!!!
((((Melonqueen))) you know considering how gorgeously endowed we are the falsies probably take it completely over the top!!
(((Essie)))) I want to make sure that you know that I would LOVE to hang out with you one on one in real life!
So, besides your B, you seem pretty busy, which I think is good. It seems that you both are in this state of taking care of yourselves, which I'm HUGE in favor of.
I'm glad that you are doing well. Let's chat some more soon...!!
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
You can never go too over the top on the bosom department!! LOL!!
I love the message you left for B, and that you smiled while you were leaving it. I can't wait for him to call back and I bet he'll be so pleased o hear from you! YAY!!!
One of the things I checked out in US were the falsies. I found some in a drug store (my favourite shops for some reason). Didnt buy them. I am waiting to buy some with the expert when I visit London... Hugs to you T... K
OD, I did see my ex-cello teacher yesterday for a few minutes. My current cello teacher said ECT was coming to pick her up, would I like to say hello? I was very warm and friendly, huge smiles like I was only happy to see her. I gave her a big hug, asked her how she was doing, asked her if she wanted to hang out. She was a little cold, "it's good to see you," "we'll see how things work out" about hanging out.
I am just trying to be a big girl. I thought about sending some muffins home with my cello teacher for ex-cello teacher to eat. We'll see. Olive branch! Olive branch!
I did something else scary today: I asked for a "sebbatical" from an ensemble I'm playing with. I just have too much on my plate & it's the only thing I could let go of. And my cello teacher was really understanding. PHEW!!! Now I have reclaimed 90 minutes of my life every week!
((BETH)) it's so good to see you on my thread! Yes, i am busy but I am not sure I am ever actually having fun. I think instead of sayign "GAL" we should say "HAVE FUN" !! I think it is awesome how much soul searching you have been doing. You are growing SO MUCH!!
((Kalni)) yay! good to see you! for some reason thinking of you in a US drug store makes me really happy. I personally don't think any of us *need* falsies!!! Love to you!
((OD)) thanks so much for supporting my latest move. I am glad you liked the message!
Just wanted to let you know I'm fine but have been reflecting and up and down in my emotions, so not feeling ready yet to post. But I'm good and happy, even if he is still giving me really mixed signals.... anyway will post later tonight. Thanks for checking in on me - you are a great friend!
Sounds to me like you totally took the high road and acted "as if" with your ex cello teacher.. and it sounds like she may want to consider some IC cause from what you describe there's some anger or something in her toward you.
I too think your voicemail was wonderful!!!!
And HURRAY that you are claiming an additional 90 minutes for yourself each week!
feeling good, working some stuff out in my heart-mind-etc. the usual... just had a good yoga class, yummy!
It has been almost a week (tomorrow) since I called B. Do I just keep waiting? How long do I wait before I reach out again? I think he took like 2 weeks or something to return my last phone call (with an apology-excuses email before the call). And then I took a week to call him back myself after our nice talk. (with an apology-excuses email halfway through the week).
I don't know if I should keep waiting until he responds, since the ball is clearly in his court and when I waited last time it worked.
OR if I should call before he does to show that I care. ??? The length of time I took to call him back (7 days instead of 1) may be interpreted as indifference --> make him feel insecure?
Just thoughts. Obviously this is not that big of a deal.
(((essie))) I totally understand. I am glad that you are OK! hang in there on the up and down-- ((HUGS))
(((where))) thanks for your support!!! you know I think you may be right about ECT. I never thought of that before Maybe it is not all "just me" !!!
