sitting here like it is a regular night. It feels surreal. Sat in backyard with H. Had regular conversation, then of course I had to cry and say if it wasnt for the OW I think we could have worked on this. He apologized. He said he knows how he feels right now but we don't know if it could change. He is leaving tomorrow and has not packed a thing. I asked him to please have his stuff moved out before I come home because it will hurt too much. Then he says will you mind if I am still here weeding the lawn???? haven't done it in months so why now. I don't get it then he says when I bring D home I will come in to say goodbye. Ok rip my heart out. Then he was talking about apt. and saying how tiny and small it was. I don't know if he will survive in such a tiny place. I hope it is noisy and uncomfortable. I just am venting. I will look at T2L links. I need to do something positive.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
