Oh Cinders, I am sorry you are not well and some of the sadness comes from the "flu" the rest is just normal I am afraid. I wish I could say God has a plan but I can't. Human nature being what it is we have winners and losers. My X appears much the same as yours from the very odd snippit I hear. It bothers me less and the pain is less. I fear the dull ache will be with me forever. You have a wide circle of friends and are so much younger than me. I really believe you will one day find love again and all this will be a distant memory. You are the winner no doubt in my mind,it just doesn't feel that way to you right now. I clung to this line for along time " I trace the rainbow through the rain, and know the promise is not vain,that morn shall tearless be" hugs to you.
