You guys are great. So much better than our MC or my IC! And the money they get paid! OMG. . . Anyway, I know the forgiveness part is my hurdle ( for now) it's funny how when I think back over the past few months and everything I thought was impossible I got through. But then something new comes up. This too shall pass, right?!? As a mom I should know that by heart. Karen I think you are right I need to pray more.
Today is a new day!
Fondly Lyn
Me 46/H 48 M 19/T 20 S 16 D 9 Bomb 2/9/08 OW 2/29/08 Ended A 3/12/08 (LIAR)
I just thought of this way to get out some frustration. Nothing new I know but what the heck. Buy some yard sale dishes that are chipped or just downright ugly and smash them. Throw them , put them in a pillowcase and bang them around. I mean a physical release of anger and frustration and not on the actual people you intend it for. What could be better?
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Good one, Kat. Another one, that we did at church camp this summer is they had you blow up a balloon and supposed to have it represent something that was stressful or made you angry (hmmm, guess who I imagined?) and then stomp the balloon till it popped. It sounds silly, but I actually did feel better after that!!! Karen
Yeah balloons always help relieve some of our grown up stuff I think. Well get this all. . I opened his cell phone bill yesterday and OH and what to my hideous surprise did I find????
He has still been calling her 5 times a day AT LEAST. JERK JERK JERK JERK. I actually headed to the court house to file for the big D. My friend called while I was on the way there and talked me out of it, for now. I really didn't believe he could do anything WORSE! I was so wrong, she went on a trip with him last month! I don't deserve this! How do I keep it together any longer?
Me 46/H 48 M 19/T 20 S 16 D 9 Bomb 2/9/08 OW 2/29/08 Ended A 3/12/08 (LIAR)
Oh and 10 minutes before I was rereading the part about truly forgiving and letting go and moving on. Beating myself up because I can't seem to let go since he has actually committed again. HAH! Well just goes to show you how much our intuition is right. JERK JERK JERK JERK
And I forgot to mention they are planning a trip together for next year.
Me 46/H 48 M 19/T 20 S 16 D 9 Bomb 2/9/08 OW 2/29/08 Ended A 3/12/08 (LIAR)
We now we are back to where we started he is on the couch again, not talking to me and acting hostile. I asked if we could talk just now and he said no. I know that's pushing the R so I said could we make an appt he said this afternoon. I feel the problem that is about to happen is he is going to start blaming me (again) for his deception. How do you handle it when they turn the tables on you? Help anyone? I get so flustered. Now I'm actually thinking I should just be busy after work and say oh I had to run errands and I forgot . Help anyone?
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Me 46/H 48 M 19/T 20 S 16 D 9 Bomb 2/9/08 OW 2/29/08 Ended A 3/12/08 (LIAR)
Hold up a mirror when they start it up? Don't let yourself get dragged in to it. Say , "I am sorry that that is what you believe but I do not share your opinion."
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Have you ever tried that? He gets so hostile and antagonistic (sp?) I just can't even talk. I was on my way to the courthouse yesterday after I found out about them again ( did I mention I finally called her H) but I started thinking about $ and chickened out. Now I wish I hadn't because at least I would have a few seconds of peace.
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Me 46/H 48 M 19/T 20 S 16 D 9 Bomb 2/9/08 OW 2/29/08 Ended A 3/12/08 (LIAR)
That is where I am now. It is so much easier. Quit giving him the power to do that. Decide that you will not get pulled in. I have to believe a strong stance and positive thoughts go a long way.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Karen