Kaw: i use to snoop a lot on out first reconciliation, and beleive me, although i miss that source of information i can tell you that now, that i dont have it, i feel better and there are no effects of afraid and scare on my mood or R... think about it... let it flow... andrea
Agreeing with the rest. I know the source of information seems great, but there are all the mind games that could be avoided if you just didn't read it.
And, oh boy, am I curious about the wake up technique. Can I give you my H's email?
Ooohhhh! I knew I was going to get into a lot of hot water on two fronts with that last post!!
... and, I can understand the positive feedback from CAW the next day, but figured it would be a short term consequence. Surely, the next day she would start to cool down some ... wrong!! I'm still getting arms wrapped around me ... affectionately being called Babe. Man, I'm soaking this in ... it seems to good to last!
Actually, there is one other fact that is fueling my PMA at this point that I forgot to mention. Labor Day weekend is coming up ... the last unoffical weekend of the summer. Back in June, she mentioned in her journal how she doubted we would remain together by the end of summer and yet we are still together.
Coming from the belief that the "A", like a flower, bloomed but ended "prematurely", for whatever reason, so that it didn't have a chance to wither and die in CAW's mind like most described in Michelle's book or here on the bb. So yes, I too, am confused by her journalling and what it all means, is it real or is it fantasy? ... or how much is real and how much is fantasy? I really don't know and at this point, it really doesn't matter. What is important (and I know Zebra and a few others can relate to this), is that as long as OM is still in the picture in some form, it tremendously hinders our progress on strengthen our bond to be together. Since I will never place CAW in a position to say yes OM is still "there" in some form, because I don't know how any good would come from, I will never ask. It was mentioned my PMA wouldn't take such a hit if I would avoid reading the journal. I actually take the hit by seeing her eyes glassed over and even watery at times ... being cold, sullen, doesn't say anything. That's where the real mind games occur. Weird enough, the journal validates where my mind goes and gauge better where this R is. I don't think I'm explain this to clearly, but I hope you understand.
OK, as far as the wake up "call", I'm just to modest to say here too graphically ... other than I could tell from her body language that she seem like she would be receptive and it had to do with a certain way to stroke the "G" spot which she took to right away ... and said the sensation lasted thru the next day.
... now the question becomes ... for how long will this ride last?
You know I DO understand what you wrote about reading the journal. In a way it's a means of control/prediction...not that you're controlling HER, but that you see a pattern and then have it confirmed so it lends a sense of control to your feelings.
Oh crap now I'M making no sense....all that G-spot talk has me flustered!
Ok, KAW. Do you realize that you're now the demigod bestower of the G-spot O's? You way very well have started a process that will turn your W into your personal love-slave!
Beats the heck out of fantasy journaling any day.....kudos.
ok, ok - I won't say anything more about the journal reading (b/c I'd have done it to). So glad to hear you made it past her end of summer deadline. Try o keep out of your own head as best you can.
Now, for the imortant stuff...about this strokin' the G-spot --- my e-mail address is...Look man, I'm desperate to try anything at this point in my sitch
Jeannine 
I'm still getting arms wrapped around me ... affectionately being called Babe. Man, I'm soaking this in ... it seems to good to last!
