WOW....sounds like you had quite a night...but the snooping is not good..and of course you know that...have I asked before..but could she be making these meetings up??I can't imagine anyone writing that stuff and leaving it out for spouse to see...she either wants you to confront her...or she has serious problems with being needed and wanted..it makes me angry to know that she writes that and leaves it out..but I think you are doing all the right things(must be pretty right too)..if you are willing to be patient..then that is all that matters.