Boy, I'm getting damn tired of this!!! Everytime I feel we are making genuine progress towards getting closer together, she does some that pulls away in ways which has been getting me really aggravated lately.

While we didn't do anything really eventful during this vacation, we did get in a lot of relaxing and quiet time and still by the end of the week, I was feeling pretty good about the R between CAW and I was getting better ... almost "normal".

... then comes today! ... The weather last week was hot & sticky or raining, so it really didn't lend it self to doing any outdoor activities. Weather channel was saying today should be one of the nicest days of the season, so I decided to extend my vacation by one more day and told CAW we could do a picnic or something like that. After taking her shower this morning, CAW annouces she was going over to a friends house and then to do some shopping. A bit annoyed by this, I responded, "Then maybe I should go into work then!"

CAW: "This proves my point. I can't go out on my own."

Me: "When I brought going on a picnic, you couldn't bring it up then?"

CAW: "I didn't say anything."

KAW: "Exactly my point. You didn't mention anything! Now you just spring it on me."

CAW: "Well I just thought you could watch D9 and I could take am oppurtunity to be on my own.

I just let it go and just said, "Then take it." She stormed out in a huff. I mean, I voice my expectations about how I wanted to spend the day I decided to take off. She makes no comment, then expects me to be OK with her spur of the moment decision to not include either of us in her day's agenda.

Well, I did take the oppurtunity to spend the day with D9 and we went to a local zoo and park.

When we got home after 3:00pm, W was still not home. She came home about a half hour later, So now the day I was hoping to spend together, is now over and did her own thing. If she wants a babysitter , all she has to do is ask. I welcome spending a day with D9 when I can, but just to tell me she was going after I expressed how I hope we would spend the day?...

Won't plan to take any time off for a while just to spend with CAW. I don't like getting "played" like that. I need to calm down and I hope venting this will help with that ... then I'm contemplating bringing it up this evening how I felt about it. Those kind of talk usually don't go well, but I need to find a way to approach this stuff...

Let you know how it pans out ... of course, if there are any suggestions out there about what may work better, I like to hear it.

'til later,
KAW