sorry it's taken me some time to get back around here.
If I knew how to use the quote thingy, I'd lift the portion of your last post about your sceptisism about your effectiveness and wanting to know in your heart that the OM is not in the picture, and then I'd swing a 2x4 at you (lovingly, of course).
Remember when you told me on my thread not to take something that is actually nothing and superimpose a negative connotation on it? Well, do as say so well.
I mean, if your wife is wanting to snuggle or receptive to you pleasuring her, then that's a great thing. Take advantage of those opportunities to draw closer wthout worrying whether her motivations are "pure." There are no white knights and no pure maidens.
Stick to reality and your positive dance steps. Take each day and each moment in stride. Be grateful that your W has sought medical attention in the past - some who should never do. If yours has before, she likely will again. PATIENCE.
Even the best marathon runners have to train. And while my brief experience with you here leads me to believe you're on of the best piecers here, you still need to practice the principles.