KAW..just wanted to let you know that you are on my mind...you are challenged so by your w illness or disorder that she is dealing with. I do know the feeling of not wanting to start a r talk...like your w, my h is not the one who usually talks, and I end up frustrated..I know it sounds to others like a copout..but our s are adults too..and the other half to the m..
As hard as it is..reading the journal is putting her thoughts, whether real or not, into your mind..and of course your gut is going to react to those..it boggles my mind why she leaves it out in plain sight...
All you can do is wait and see..patience...understanding..all of which you have had an abundance of.
