Hey peace- I am glad that you are able to distance yourself more from your H's problems. He is still avoiding finding the answers while you are moving forward finding answers for yourself. I really admire the way you have handled your situation...still caring for your H but being willing to accept that his choices are beyond your control. IMO, there comes a time when you have to stop trying to analyze the WAS's actions and just accept things for what they are. When we can get to that point, it is very freeing. It sounds like that is where you are at and I am so happy to know that you are in a good place and have made so much progress.
Continue moving forward and being happy. We can only hope and pray that someday soon your H will follow your lead and figure out how to be happy too.